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Looking for a house because I’ve pretty much decided I don’t want to move home after uni. Let us see how this goes.
I told something to someone today that I’ve never told anyone, literally ever, feel a little weird because I tried to pass it off as a comment in passing. Eh. I feel weird.
I’m feeling a backslide coming on.
It’s not a good thing.
He’s in a loving relationship.
I just want to be kissed.
Properly.
I want to be properly kissed,
By someone who loves me.
He’s one of my best friends.
He was one of my biggest crushes ever.
I love him.
Outwardly like a brother.
Inwardly it’s more.
We never really did anything.
So it’s not really a backslide.
I just miss him and I’m lonely.
Help.
I haven’t made a text post in ages, however the rumours of my death have been greatly exaggerated. I have been living without the Internets for a long time now and I find myself fading away, slowly and painfully. Well, not really but y’know.
How is everyone? How are you all you sexy little fucks?
A short update on my life…
I am still ignoring my dissertation but I did get a two thousand word essay done in two and a half hours yesterday, I think that’s a good sign. Going by that I can get ten thousand words done in about twelve and a half hours, just over half a day… I can totes do that shit.
Work is still boring and blah, blah, blah but hey ho. Shan’t be there forever.
Planning ahead to New York now, it’s happening in one and a half years from now, scary as fuck but so exciting.
Finishing uni in three months time is a scary prospect, but looking forward to living at home again where the food and internet are constant. I don’t want to have to grow up but I think I can… I think.
I still know I definitely want to teach in the future, that’s the only thing I know for sure about my future, and I cannot fucking wait!
Apart from that general stuff life is good, I’ve finally started reading for pleasure again and it’s good fun. Currently I’m reading ‘Eats, Shoots & Leaves’ by Lynne Truss at the moment and it’s a brilliant look at grammar in the everyday. Pokémon is going well and my Wii U is fantastic. That’s pretty much it really.
Tell me about your lives, I want to hear how everything is going in my tumblee’s worlds. Take care and thank you for still following me regardless of all my crappy posties and recent postlessness. Xoxo.
I just remembered why I totes distrust straight men. You can’t trust them. I remember in school, year 9, when I told a straight but tolerant (and later bi, year 11) friend that one of his friends had a hot body and super sexy nipples the guy I was talking about spoke to me a few days later and literally said, ” So, I hear you have a thing for my nipples?”
I went bright red and denied everything (while picturing myself sucking on those pert nips). It was so embarrassing, I was only just coming to terms with my sexuality and had only come out to a few people and suddenly about half of my year knew I was a big old homo.
I very much wish that coming out had been my choice, being forced out of the closet was not good, especially when it left me completely unprepared for jokes like, “Hey, Roydon, I hear you’re swinging for the other team now.”
I just watched The Perks of Being a Wallflower and fuck me, that was a great film…
So, what happened today? Well I had a practical lesson reacting to ‘The Passion of Joan of Arc’ which was pretty interesting. We are studying Artaud in one of my modules this semester and we had pretty much most of the lesson as an Artaudian reaction piece. I felt the influences of theatre of cruelty in most of the stuff going on, it was pretty cool.
I’m also getting used to my sexy new tablet, my lovely Google Nexus 7. I’m posting from it right now, it’s an awesome piece of kit. On the plus-er it was only £159. So basically it rocks.
One bad thing happened was that I told my mum that I now smoke. She wasn’t very impressed, but luckily from a more financial view point. She wouldn’t really have a leg to stand on otherwise because she smoked for thirty years of her life. Oh, you’ll laugh when I tell you this, I was going to use the fact that my dad still smokes as a safety net… He only went and gave up six weeks ago. Oh well, still didn’t go too badly.
Tomorrow will be a good day. I get my pay, £690, which means I can do another months rent, pay my dad back some of the money I owe him and book my ticket to go and see Adam (making it official)! Plus I’ve just had a cheque clear tonight so I even have some spending money! Yay!
Basically good times all around really and good time most definitely to come.
So, moving out today and tomorrow and luckily I have hardly anything to clean because my house mate’s parents did a lot of the cleaning, I just need to pay particular attention to the walls, the bathroom, the kitchen, stains and of course my own bedroom which will most likely be last due to my spending one more night in it.
It’s weird that I’ve been here for eleven months now and I just won’t be anymore but that’s the life of a student for you.
So I’ve been eating vegan for about two weeks now and I don’t think I can do it. I already don’t eat eggs due to my intolerance of them but veganism is just too much. I think I will continue to drink soya or almond milk, just because it’s tasty but I miss cheese and chocolate and veggie Percy’s. I’m going to stay vegetarian.
I have put on weight… I’ve decided that I was a lot cuter when I was stressed and losing a little bit through stress, however I started getting ill. Now I think I’m going to go on a diet and since I’ve just gone vegan it’s going to be really easy to follow.
Going vegan has pretty much cut concentrated fats out of my diet, the only fat I add is in shallow frying with olive oil and sunflower spread on sandwiches/toast so I don’t feel I need to cut them. I am cutting my concentrated carbs to only allow myself to eat carbs as part of a main meal, of which I have three a day, that allows for cereal or toast for breakfast, a sandwich for lunch and a curry, pasta, stir-fry or whatever for dinner, but only allowing one concentrated carb per meal. Apart from meals I’m only allowed to eat fruit and veg, including salads, for snacking. No crisps, partially due to the fats and such but also because they just work out expensive. No chocolate, it’s difficult to find vegan chocolate anyway so it’s just easier to cut it out. I can’t eat white sugar due to the process used to refine cane sugar so I can’t eat sweets or jams or anything and I’m getting my protein from the soya based meat alternatives in Asda’s range of meat free food.
That is the big three, carbs, protein and fats, covered and I will be getting my vitamins from the fruit and calcium from soya milk or almond milk, depending on my mood. This is going to be easy.
I’ve decided I want a tea set, but I don’t want a set of matching cups or a matching teapot. I want my Mother’s cat teapot which is this fat white cat holding a ball of blue wool or yarn or whatever you knit with. Then I don’t want cups to match it, I want one purple cup with a really ornate ‘Victorian wallpaper’ kind of pattern on it. I want a black cup with gold detailing on it. I want two green cups, one light green with a wavy design and one dark green with a minimalist design on it. I must have a Pokémon cup, I must! Finally, I want a hot/neon pink cup with awful neon yellow or orange detailing on it. I want the saucers to match the cups but the cups can never be put on their own saucer. I want a collection of pretty little spoons that hang, and have a character on the end, most likely to be the Tetley Tea People. I want a really expensive, traditional sugar bowl, similar to how I imagined the sugar bowl from Lemony Snicket’s The Series of Unfortunate Events: white, floral and delicate. I want a plain white milk jug, like you find in any café in the UK. To finish the set off I want a huge and obnoxious ‘Keep Calm and Carry On’ style tray to keep it all on.
Just text my mum telling her I’m going vegan… Can’t wait to see the reply, especially if it’s anything like when I told her I was going veggie…
Screw going vegan for a week, I have far too much veggie food that isn’t vegan, I’ll just slowly phase myself into veganism by replacing my veggie products with vegan ones once I run out, so I’ll be buying soy milk instead of cow’s milk ans sunflower or olive spread to replace my butter… This will be easy, and I just downloaded vegan product lists for Sainsbury’s and M&S so I’m a happy bunny.
